Last night I felt really good about going to taraweeh, although it made me tired, but still, I am living a better Ramadan here this year, compared to my previous one... Mainly because, I moved to the states last year during Ramadan.
It was painful and it doubled my home sickness to fast and then break my fast by myself, to cook by myself, to pray by myself...well, most of the time Jeeej was there with me and breaking fast with me, but those times I did it by myself, it was really unbearable!
I spent most of it's nights crying because of loneliness...It was actually because of husbandi's worst working schedule on earth...Thank God his schedule is way more flexible this year:)
I wasn't as good as I am now in cooking back then and it made me feel really bad whenever the meal came out awful!! Jeeej has never complained about my bad dishes, but deep inside I knew I should have done better...but I was still a fresh bride! Cooking good and make it ready by time seemed like mission impossible! This Ramadan, We have people coming to our place eating with us, and we have people inviting us too!! Today we are making Ribs and fattoush and mashed potatoes for some family and friends :D
I had no car last year, I wasn't driving! I couldn't get what my dishes were missing while cooking! It taught me how to be creative in finding alternatives, but still, it didn't make me feel good!
I wasn't teaching last year...I felt really bored during the month! I had no one to see or to visit or to talk to...while Jeeej was at work the whole day...
I'm so used to Sohour meal, and Jeeej wasn't! I skipped it many times last year for I had no one to eat with...but this year...we haven't missed it once, and he loves it :D
Last year, I used to go to the Muslim Community, seeing hundreds of people every night we go for taraweeh and sessions after prayer and still felt lonely...seeing how most of them know each other, feeling familiar to the place they were in, and I wasn't feeling the same...I KNEW NO ONE! But now, working for the community since January, and meeting many people from all over the world made me feel it's my second home now! I go there with my heart happily beating, I see may familiar faces, many of my students with their parents...
I LOVE RAMADAN THIS YEAR!! I miss my family so bad...but going there last July gave me a great push towards this year! I'm so glad I went there to have extra dose of my family's love and care...and food :pp I miss ATAYIF!!
Last night,,,this is what we were talking about and then Jeeej promised he'll make me some Atayif ! He knows how to do them really well :D
Thank you GOD for everything...& Ramadan Mubarak everybody!
Iman, is a mother of two students at the school I work at. I drove to her house twice to pick her up few months ago. I actually had a cup of coffee with her once! AT HER HOUSE!!!
Tasneem, is a mother of a little girl whose name is Iman, too, and she called me last week to see if I can teach her daughter starting today, Monday!
She gave me her address, and I left it somewhere, I just can't remember where!
I opened my address book just before I left to make sure that Little Iman's class starts at 2:50 pm! And I saw the name Iman, with an address underneath! So I was like: wow! I thought I lost it!
I left my place around 2:35 pm, too early to make sure I arrive on time, first impressions are IMPORTANT!
I entered the address of IMAN, into my DEAR AZEEEZEH, and started driving :) I missed an exit! it's ok, I still have time:)
I keep driving! And I reach DESTINATION!! I park my car, and proudly look at my watch! I made it on time!
I ring the bell, I hear kids voices, and then the door opens! hahahhahaa It was the Old Iman!!! The mother of the students who opened the door, holding her lunch plate in her hand with her kids playing around!
I was like what is going on?!?! Is this a kind of joke or something?!?!?! She didn't get it first! she thought I'm visitng her or something, and started begging me to go in and have lunch with them!
I then, started to think! hehehe...I must have entered this Iman's address, not my student's!!!
I spent 5 min. apologizing to this Iman, and tried to explain to her...and she thought I was high!!!
Anyways, I called Naelah -a mother of one of my students that I teach at my place & will start teaching at her place starting tomorrow, and she is the aunt of Little Iman- to ask for Iman's address, for I was TOO SHY to call Iman's mom!
Me: hello! I'm kind of late for my class, but I think I have lost my way driving to Iman's house, so would you please give me her address?! Naela: oh ok, you have a pen!? Me: Yep! Go ahead!
She gave me an address! I entered it, and I drove! I park my car, at 3:05 pm, and I ring the bell...and NAELAH opened the door!!!!
So I was like: wow! you are visiting Iman?!?!?!!?! hhahahhaaa...she said: NO! THIS IS MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!
Me: why?!?!?!?!?! I asked for Iman's address!!
For God's sake!!!! it's my first 30 min class to Iman, and I'm already 15 min. late...I have 4 other classes to give right after hers...
Naela: OH!! I thought you asked for mine!!!
WHY WOULD I?!?!?!? It's not your kid's time yet!
She doesn't know the address, but she knows the directions! AND THAT WAS BAAAAAAAD! I ended up at Iman's place 20 min late!!!
I spent 5 min. apologizing and the last five min. to say hello and good bye to Little poor Iman!!!
Through my whole life before marriage, I only remember how we once moved from "Mafraq" to "Amman". I can't remember the packing and unpacking at all...It all went smoothly "I thought"!
Before we got married, Hubby told me that once we arrive here we'll have to move to our new place, because the studio he was living in was too small for us! I was assured not to worry about packing his stuff at all, that it will all be packed before we arrive...
We spent 4 nights in his old tiny place and spent the 5th day moving! Renting and driving a U-HAUL wasn't easy :( especially because it was all during Ramadan last year...
Well, it's been almost a year for us living here...and it's time to move out, to another new place... And I'm worried, why?! - because we have more furniture to move with us this time - because we have to leave this place on the 30th of this month, and we still didn't find a place to move to! - because the new place should be somewhere close to Jeeej's work and to the mosque in Santa Clara.... - because it will be Ramadan by then, and we'll be fasting... and because I worry too much!
Jeeej always asks me to relax, and have faith in Allah SWT that everything will be ok, and that it'll be much easier than I think...
I don't know...should I start packing?! should I keep looking for a place on my free time while he's at work? should we look for a place together on his days off?! It's so confusing!
I am not asking for much! All I want is a nice clean place, don't mind the size as long as our big couches fit in :p I don't want to live in a noisy area, too close to the streets and stuff! I don't know why it seems like impossible to find such a place :s
The thing is that, if you find a really really nice place to live in it's rental payment is way higher than our budget, and if you find a place with our budget, or below, you don't feel it's worth the payments at all !! This is what I don't like about CA, it's too expensive and the apartments are just too small!! TOO small :(
Qabbani has created a very simple and nice tag, and during the last 2 weeks, I noticed that almost all of the bloggers have answered it!
Dima, tagged me the same one as well...:) Thanks to both!
A lot of answers on many blogs match mine,,,But it's ok, I'm listing my favourite smells anyway...
I love the smell of "ad7a", it's when you fry garlic with cilantro before you add it to the stock you are cooking...especially while I'm HUNGRY:)
I love the smell of Jasmin, especially the one that grows close to my parent's bedroom's window!
I love the smell of musk Jeeej wears EVERY SINGLE FRIDAY, since we first met! He got it from KSA, & I keep worrying, what if he used it all, where will he get the same exact one from?!
I love the smell of chocolate chip cookies, coming out of the oven:)
I love the smell of hot tea, when it's made with mint!
I love the smell of the freshly roasted peanuts! Especially the ones in downtown Amman, being roasted by the nice old man there:)
I love the smell of mama's scarfs! When I borrow one to wear, I start melting while wearing it! I still can smell it even from faaaar far away:D
I love many other smells,,,but these are my favourites!
Today morning, I asked Jeeej the question, I mean I tagged him, and most of his answers were like mine, and he added:
- Smell of Lavender. - Smell of steaks while being cooked!!! hehe - Smell of eucalyptus! I love this one too!!
That was fun :D Happy Friday!
My speedy Jeeej made some pancakes for us this morning before he went to work! with some yummi berries...it smelled yummi yum! and it finally felt like a normal Friday:) Fridays' breakfasts are the best!
A very shocking story was published in Who-sane's blog -a Jordanian blogger- about his father's tragedy at Prince Hamza Hospital in Jordan... I got so mad after I read his post, and I wanted to help in any way I can, so I decided to leave a link here for the story in Arabic... and here for the story in English...