It took me two months to decide on leaving Mariyah in California and bring Selma and Sophia with me to Amman so I can attend my sister Mimi's wedding. Mariyah's school ends on the 12th of June, she couldn't leave her lottery school to join me, otherwise she would lose her spot there. It wasn't easy to decide and accept the idea but the thought of giving Mariyah a chance to experience life without me, to be independent and to spend some quality time with jeeej and his mom, made it so much easier.
She is having a blast. Her teta has been taking her to some favorite places and feeding her well every day. Jeeej is doing a great job in the afternoons and on this long weekend. She's excited to share her news with me when we Skype. She keeps asking jeeej to take pictures of her projects and drawings and then send them to me.
Some people here ask me if I trust jeeej enough to take care of her the right way while I'm not around. No matter how much I explain no one will understand how attentive he is, How gentle and caring he is. A week before I left them in California, jeeej took Mariyah and Selma camping with our friends and their kids for 2 nights.
I didn't join because I was preparing for Amman's trip, plus I needed sometime to rest with baby Sophia. My friends kept comforting me by texts telling me that the girls are doing great and behaving well away from me. The camping trip made me feel more relaxed about leaving Mariyah.
I keep reminding myself that giving my girls some space is important, that time flies and that I'll hold Mariyah tight in no time, inshaAllah.